Sunday, November 18, 2007

My ever changing and evolving thoughts.

Thoughts are never stagnant. At least, not mine. Not for some time. And thats good and bad. Good coz it means I am always having fresh thoughts. Bad coz it means I am having alot of differing thoughts. But thats how the human brain and mind work, isn't it?

I had had two great weekends in Beijing. Back to back. Its nice. Beijing is not my home yet it feels it sometimes. I guess I grew used to it. Somewhat like how couples got used to each other? Oops. That does not sound good heh.

I remember one of my ex ever told me this. He felt that each day in SIN is like a holiday to him. He afterall came from France and Singapore is/was new to him. Everyone he met, every bus he took, every encounter seemed like one he would come across when he was on holiday. I finally understood how he felt after I move to Beijing. I may be on my way to work, but 'I feel like I am on holiday'. Every cab, every cab-driver, every tree, every flower along the way are different from that of Singapore's. Its been 2 1/2 years but Beijing is BIG enough for me to continue to feel this way.

Yet, Beijing feels like home too. This is because I am beginning to feel that I can live here for forever. But that was how I felt in Singapore and that was why I was compelled to leave Singapore.

In this respect, I have to leave yet again. Its beginning to feel like home. Or is it?

The thoughts continue...to evolve...