Crippling Fear

I grew up watching Channel 8 drama series. Its 'influence' in me was so great that when I wrote the script for Channel 5 drama series "Growing Up" in my script-writing class (yes yes, i love TV so much that after I quit Current Affairs I thought I would switch from production to script-writing. And from hard news to mama drama), I included a scene whereby Lim Kay Tong's wife fainted upon hearing some not too favorable news. The Academy award winning trainer who probably has never watched a single Chinese movie in her life, circled that part of the script and wrote, "???".

Let me guess, she probably thought, "Is this girl and is this for real?", "Is this medically possible?", "I thought she has the making of a good script writer, what happened to her?!".

It never occurred to me that I am more channel-8 influenced rather than channel-5 influenced. At least when it comes to TV viewing habits. And I thought, "Yah, how can people faint just like that! Medically impossible. So drama..aiyo".

The last one week, my legs threatened to give away a few times throughout the day. My knees were (still are) weak. My heart skipped a beat (or two) each time an email comes in. I am afterall waiting for the email from my mum's doctor (and still am. And will talk about sending and receiving of emails in another insertion). I can feel my legs floating sometimes. I can also feel my heart in my mouth....or just below my throat, right on my chest. There is also this 'hollow' feeling that comes with a ringing sound...like a typhoon swirling on my chest.

Surely, people do faint when they fear unfavourable news.

God Bless.