Friday, March 28, 2008

If u dont want to know the truth, don't ask.

I didn't think and just went ahead to ask.

I ask a friend if she knows the ex is still in SIN.

She offered more than what I needed to know.

He is back in his home country. Has a child now.

Once upon a time, he told me he would never have a child with her.

If you don't want to know the truth, don't ask.

I must remember this.

Wednesday, March 19, 2008

Island Affair

Lately I have been 'producing' stories ... in my head. Thanks to my TCS days, story crafting comes second nature to me.

Only because a certain posting in a certain city is vacant. And the ex hails from there and is from the same trade.

I have scenes of myself taking up the posting. And him hearing of it.

I see scenes of me meeting him in his home country. The same way we first met.

I witness our subsequent meetings...about work or is it?

The scenes have no ending. Somewhat like what you see in European movies...leaving much to one's own guesses. But the cast are Asians... for once.

I would. Turn this into a movie perhaps. One day. Perhaps.

Wednesday, March 12, 2008

After 9 years...

I realised in February 2008 that playing the game (ie. be a postman ie forward emails to a whole bunch of people, show no opinion, report and do not analyse, open your mouth during important meetings and in front of BIG bosses, being extremely attentive to big bosses needs (like making sure tea cup is filled etc), playing the victim etc) is the key to getting big BOSSES to have a good perception of oneself.

And I have failed. i have no regrets (for myself) only sorrow and dis-illusion for the organisation and the 'product' of which is so dear to me.

I will walk out of this game with my heads up...as i was never part of the game and never intended to be.

I WAS packing my things and came across the every first magazines that mark the start of my life in Beijing....July/Aug 2005. Time flies.