Wednesday, August 22, 2007

When u had not done much lately and had to re-live your past...

Some of the 'wow' things i have done....in my opinion at least...and I am entitled to it.

Swam with thousands of jelly fish in the republic of palau.

Fell in love and dated a frenchman in paris...and to have him followed me back to SIN and we lived together for two years.

On a motorbike ok ok i was the pillion rider all the way to Cherating, Malaysia.....almost 7 hours? on the bike.

Swam naked off Cherating.

Wore my good friend Noel's pyjamas and he wore mine (comes with a huge cartoon character) and together we walked from Kent Ridge Hall to NUH cafe at 3 am one night. He lost a bet with me.

Went out to the sea again a year after my friend drowned right before my eyes...ok ok my then boyfriend was on the sailboat with me.

Went out to the sea alone and determined to handle the boat myself, after this then boyfriend and i broke up.

Interviewed the late s rajaratnam, singapore's first foreign minister. i was but 25 years old. ok ok i was with my mentor, an experienced TV personality BUT hey he brought me along and we spent an hour with the later senior minister.

Almost interviewed manmohan singh with a colleague, not when he became indian premier but when he was finance minister. we wrote in, he was keen for the interview but he had to be in SIN when we were in India.

Flew in a RSAF helicopter to shoot a re-enactment of the cable car mishap. seeing the plan view of singapore was spectacular...

Dropped everything, didn't inform my boss, flew home to ask a guy if he had ever loved me...when he decided to 'break up' with me and go back to his girlfriend who had attempted suicide.

Sunday, August 05, 2007

Don't Judge. What U see MAY NOT be what it is.

Thought Numero One

U think he's a friend who would ALWAYS be on your side. Not necessarily so. If its going to affect him in the slightest way, he would chicken out. And one incident is sufficient to expose his wimpy side. And its going to affect the intensity of our friendship. Coz I am going to 'pull out' ever so slightly but I would. I cannot accept a friend who would not stand by me.

Thought Numero Two

Don't judge someone by her command of any language nor her mannerism. She may look Lian, talk and behave lianly but boy, have you seen her paintings?

Thought Numero Three

The effect of one's childhood on one's adulthood is more than one can imagine. So to parents out there, don't be a screwed-up parent coz you will screw up your child's life. And if you think you can't help it, don't have a child.

Thought Numero Four

Just when you think a person can't get any 'straighter', she tells u she used to 'see' another girl. What u see u is what u get? U Bet...NOT.

Thought Numero Five

Branding yourself as XXX, does not necessarily make you one. And it certainly does not mean the rest are NOT.

What an exciting week I had had.


Wednesday, August 01, 2007

It can only get worse...better poohahahhahaha

When do I know I had to quit my job/change of job scope?

When I applied soap on my body repeatedly in the shower...

Then it got worse...

When I applied shampoo twice on my hair...I was prolonging the time in the shower....

Ultimate....

When I applied my bust cream on my thighs....that was IT. I had to go....the bust cream cost a bomb! I had to be really out of my mind to use it on my thighs! I knew how 'serious' the situation was by then. Ha ha haha.

When do I know the 'beginning' of the scenario above is creeping in?

When I start telling outsiders my most truthful thoughts whilst my boss is in the same meeting and he does not agree with me.

When I forget to lock my door and slept through the night...

When I kept pressing the lift button indicating 27th floor (thats where my apartment is) on my way to work...when I should press Ground floor...

Poohahahahaha. Watch this space.

Tuesday, July 31, 2007

I am but the same 18 year old college girl...

Almost 2/3 of my life is gone YET I am still the pony tailed ACJC girl, a free spirit, still searching, still yearning for new experiences, still bored....

One day in school, looking at the empty school field in ACJC, I wrote down how I felt that day. How Lost I am. How Aimless I am. How I dont know whats ahead.

I kept the note. And more than a decade later (and almost 2 decades soon) , I digged it out, read it and realised that I FEEL the SAME WAY.

Friends have married, some married and divorced, some have kids, some have died...and I am still the SAME. Still feeling the same way, still wanting the same things (or do I want anything?) and still not getting them.

I am looking out of my office window in Beijing whilst writing this now. Should I be surprised that 20 years down the road when I re-read this article, I would FEEL the SAME WAY?

Totally NOT related Message:
Feels totally strange not to be able to 'see' my blog yet able to upload articles, pixs etc. Longest ban by the Chinese censor rats thus far.

Monday, July 30, 2007

Eat, Sleep, Grow Fat and Die.

Boy, am I bored.

First time in two years, I am so free I am half way through an English novel and a Chinese book within one work week.

I even cropped my hair to just below my jawline; the last time I did that was when I was 15 years old.

I also found time to work on what I was sent here for. And I finished it in half a day.

Bored.