Is there an opt-in form?

When I go to Heaven and when I meet the Lord, I am going to ask why is it that you keep some of us attached and some of us, single.

I am likely to go back to Singapore the way I came three years ago, alone.

I have forgotten how it is like to go on a date. I wouldn't know what to wear, what to say and where to keep my hands. :-) To myself I suppose. Poohahahaha.

I am so used to singlehood that I can't quite remember how it is like to be in love. Wait, your heart will beat faster ya? And everything will taste sweeter?

A European girlfriend once pulled me aside and exclaimed, "Beng, I can feel it all coming back again. I am a virgin all over again. Yes, its been that long!". I shall never forget the scene that took place in a dark lane in Beijing, one starry starry night. Trust the angmos to be so upfront.

The other night I dropped by at a pub to meet some friends. I met a new angmo guy and a new Chinese girl. The girl and I started chatting and the next thing I know, she took out a camera and showed us photos of two lovely kids of mixed parentage. I said to HER, "The boys are so cute, are they yours?". HE went, "Wait till you see them, our boys are naughty."

I did't stay long in the pub that night. In fact, I went off without ordering any drinks. I was tired, tired of myself thinking,"Even this plain jane is attached, or married to be exact, and to an angmo! Whats wrong with me?". I didn't want to dwell on that thought (I didn't) and hence I left. To go to my lovely single abode. To my haven which only know of singlehood.

Sometimes I think IF, if I am prettier, I would be attached by now. And then I meet this plain Jane who is married and my "I am not as pretty hence I am still single" theory is thrown out of the window.

Then I go to a party and my girlfriends would ask, "Which one do you fancy? I will introduce.". Ten out of ten times, I picked someone who has a ring on his fourth finger or someone whose girlfriend is in the same party.

I rarely meet singles I am keen on and on those limited occasions, the guy is not interested in me. Or he is this man from across the streets and there is no way I would get to know or if there is any reason for us to meet (more than once).

U go for gatherings and u are the only single. U go for meetings and u are the only single.

Have faith and the right guy will arrive. Yes, he will. Perhaps. But I am into the last stretch of my life now. And I am already used to sleeping alone, spending holidays on my own AND talking to myself at home. Is there a opt-in form for this? I certainly did not sign my name on the opt-out form :-)